Tired of drama.

2012 happenings

2012-02-13T22:26:00.000+08:00

Okay im finally back! Summarising what happened in 2012 in this post, it will be a short one but a lot of photos! weeee since so long i last blogged with hell lots of photoos wohoo. and yea, 2012 was okay. I made new friends! and started to get busier in life... 24hrs a day isnt enough right? hmm..

CNY 2012...
A full-of-angbaos year for me! :p And also the busiest one in my fifteen years of life so far. Fun, amazingly awesome. Made new friends! Many $$$$ came in! heheheeh! learnt how to gamble too! i feel so cooool. lolol! :p yeah. But then, this year's cny atmosphere wasn't very good.. i miss past years' cny atmosphere, so much more better. hmm but i still enjoyed! yeahh thanks people for making it awesome! :)

PROJECT MI..
A very meaningful, and fun one! Before that i thought it would be boring but it came out fun! I miss knocking doors to spread the news. it was tiring, but it was worth it when i see ppl donating rice, it really encourages me to keep on going... yeah and i also miss talking rice, one by one on the floor when the rice dropped on the floor! this scence reminds me of a pic in my sec2 history textbook, anyone knows? :p
Happy with my grouping too! heeheee thanks everyone and also people who set up this cip prog!

MLA....
A quite boring one actually.. the best one so far was the sec2's bintan camp! pure awesomeness plssss. i hope for a camp next year! :( but still, it was okay.

yaaaa, ive finished! events without photos i shall not elaborate (lazy :P) hehehe! tooodles! will blog often if i have the time to do so!

Hello 2012!

2012-01-09T17:39:00.000+08:00

Hey people! How long have i left this blog dead? haha! quite long alr i guess? so yep, i managed to squeeze some time to update this blog of mine.

Oh, it's 2012?! Time really flies! And i think i will wanna look back at 2011 on what i've done, what i've achieved, what i've lost and what i've learnt!

Countdown to 2011 with father's friends. Had pizzas.
MLA 2011; great bonding times with 3N1! Had fun during the activities.
CT1; manageable.
X-Country; sweaty as ever.
Went to genting during march hols, super cold yet fun!
Got relatively high marks for papers. Felt very encouraged, decided to work even harder.
Found maths is really fun and i'm starting to love this subject (i used to dislike it)
Sports day; super boring.
FNN Johor trip with 3N1 & 3N3! Very fun and learnt a lot!
SA1; scared but still, tried my best.
Elective module; basic culinary and baking skills. I love this module!
Health atarted failing at me and started on medication.
Got top in standard. Really shocked, i never expected that.
June holidays started.
Sent friends going for cambodia trip at the aiport.
Fetched them back, too. Had late dinner @ bukit timah.
June holidays was fun. Talked on the phone every night & slept at wee hours. Haha!
Went to Huizhen's CO Concert. Knew friend's friends who also went for Cambodia trip.
Celebrated Jiajun and Wanyu's bday at IMM. Super fun day. hhaha jj, rmb the push up?
Royced invited me for RadCon 2011 (church event). Fun, had some new friends. took photos too.
That's when i started to go church every saturday.
Metamorphosis 2011. quite ok?
Outings with my girls at ECP. food food food!
My bday celebration. dinner @ bukit timah. fun day!
CT2; still okay.
Steamboat @ my house. spent all my money on the food.
Prawning with friends. Caught quite a number of prawns. mostly by zh lol! Cooked @ alex's house.
Sep hols. a short one. nothing much.
Went to snowcity to celebrate wendy's bday, then dinner @ pizzahut. fun day!
Started to mug for exams every friday @ king albert mac with tingwei & boonkang.
SA2; first time having exams at hall and im super afraid.
Zhenhao's bday! Went to swimming pool to playyyy. Fun!
Jiajun's house warming; a day which ive always been waiting for.fun as expected.
Got top in standard, once again.. very happy.
Wanyu's house bbq! karaoke all night w/ tingwei. fun!
Geylang serai trip with fnn. learnt a lot, fun!
Modern dance performance @ UCC. yes, nice!
Long-waited dec hols finally started!
BBQ @ Pasir ris with church friends! awesome evening!
Went for interview to get a job.
Then taiwan trip! shop for a lot of clothes. spent too much.. :P
Tingwei's chalet/BBQ. didnt stay long. food was nice!
Started working at breadtalk.
Went for a 3D2N chalet @ changi with my church's lifegroup. super fun!
4D3N YI CAMP. plain awesome seriously!
XMAS BASH @ church. yeah fun! a lot of food toooo :P
Count down newyear @ alex's house. awesome night.

So yep, this is 2011. Summarized everything in one sentence each! Could be elaborated but forget it! LAzy :P. I have 2012 resolutions too!

Study hard!
Dont eat too much :P
Manage my emotions well!
Do well for N's, and O level maths!
Get into sec5!
Dont spend too much money

So i think thats all..? yep, will end my post here. any comments just click comment below! Toodles!

Motivation chief role

2011-12-09T00:54:00.001+08:00

Motivation is the inner force that keeps us continuing daily activities which, in time, will lead to a desired result. Motivation for human beings is like gasoline for cars. Without being motivated for a certain action we can’t perform that action properly, or worse, we can’t even do it. Even if it is really important, being motivated is frequently ignored by most of us, so we find ourselves wondering what is going wrong when we don’t feel like doing something any longer. People often forget that they need motivation in the things they’re doing and instead of trying to renew, rediscover their motivation, they keep on going without taking knowledge anymore why they started the activity in question in the first place, thus the motivation disappears once the oblivion steps in.

1. Things Didn’t Work Out as we Expected

Well, we face this disappointment frequently in our daily life, from the little things to the greater ones, from the cake that we messed up with too much sugar to the important job meeting where no one could come to an understanding. The degree of disappointment lessens when we adapt to the situation easily, when we accept it as it is, but also not giving up our efforts to improve it. The questions remaining are: is it worth the effort and the time invested, or should I do something else? It is really possible to do something to improve the situation?

We also must never forget that we shouldn’t give up in doing something only because it is much harder that we expected. In time, with a little ambition, we’ll gain the attributes needed in doing that thing, because almost everything can be learned with some work and patience.

2. Our Efforts Aren’t Appreciated

We are created in a manner in which our actions demand an appreciation. From an early age, people, being children, need their parents’ support and encouragement in order to accomplish a certain task. Our first step with our parents’ help is accompanied with applause and words like “well done”, and even if we don’t understand the words yet, we feel their meanings. The songs that we sing, the homework that we do, the house cleaning on Saturday morning, the new recipe that we tried, the work that we do to bring money for our family, all of these, or shortly, in almost all that we do, we need to be appreciated even if we aren’t aware of this. We all have observed that we tend to lose our motivation when people don’t appreciate our work.

The questions are: Do we really need to be appreciated by someone else in order to go on with the things that we do?

Isn’t enough for us to be content with what we do? And the answer is yes, even if it is harder, but it is possible. We should be happy with our work if it is a well done work. We should have confidence that what we do is the right thing that should be done and it is done in a right way. If we gain this confidence than it wouldn’t matter anymore what the others say, but we should also not forget to listen to what the others have to say and to take in consideration their opinion if it’s a true one.

3. The Lack of Communication with the Team

In almost every field we interact with people, we depend on people, we need people, and we need a team to get a certain job well done. If the relationships between the members of the team are tense, if some members of the team don’t do their work properly, we come to find it hard to continue. The solution would be communication. Making our expectations and disappointments known to the others (which represents the very first step for communication improvement) and try to find a reasonable way to solve the issue.

4. Fatigue

When we feel tired we tend to see the darker side of all things. We shouldn’t ignore the times when our body or mind or both demand a break because if we end up beaten it is definitely more difficult to recover.

These are only four main factors that may cause motivation loss and depending on our personality we can find more or less, however, identifying these factors can make us realize where the problem actually is.

Where are my holidays?

2011-10-30T19:26:00.001+08:00

Helloooo! I'm here to bring this blog back to life. Hahahas! Hmmm, so exams are over now.. I'm quite satisfied with my results! But, I did not improve, my overall percentage for SA2 was slightly lower than that in SA1. :( But with no doubt, I will still continue working hard! :)

For lower secondary students, holidays have started :( and the sec3s? Have to go back two week for extra lessons! Mostly ms seah's lessons :x so sad! I wanna dye my hair soon >_<
Note to self: preserve!! :)

Went over to jiajun's place for housewarming event last week. We had steamboat! It was so damn shiok la! :P watched horror movie @ midnight. And the boys were actually more afraid than me?! Hahaha! I feel like a pro! So we stayed over till the next day and I went to church after that :)
Yesterday (and today), we had a BBQ event at wanyu's place! It was awesome. Karaoke whole night! Sang till around 4-5am, everyone was down alr. Left me and Tingwei! We kept singing till around 8am plus, then went to join those sleeping pigs! Hahahas!! Had lunch after that then went home. So yup, this is today :)
Below are pictures of jiajun's housewarming event. I didn't have any photos of wanyu's BBQ event! Didn't take much I guess, busy singing :P

Can you relate?

2011-09-19T21:00:00.001+08:00

You sit in your towel after a shower because you’re too lazy to get dressed. You and your best friend can say one word, and crack up. You hate when one string of your hoodie is longer than the other. You hate it when people think you like someone when you clearly don’t. You hate it when your favorite song comes on, as you pull into the driveway. You feel like if you turn on the lights, you will be safe from anything. You push those little buttons on the lids of fast-food drinks. You laugh until people get hurt, then stop when you realize it’s serious. You hate it when parents get serious about something funny you tell them. You hate when you tell a guy to shut up and they copy you in a higher voice. You pretend to sleep when your parents come in. You text the person next to you things that you can’t say out loud. You hate when people in front of you walk really slow and you can’t get past them. You’re always tired no matter how much sleep you get. You stop the microwave before it hits 00:00 to avoid hearing the beeps. You use the “sup” head nod. You just did the nod after you read it. You hate when you are mad at someone and they make you laugh. You check the fridge every ten seconds to see if food magically appeared.

Candles

2011-09-12T23:18:00.001+08:00

Hello! Back here posting again. Hmm played candles with Jiajun Tingwei Leonard Boonkang Zongyi last night! I was shouting all the way cos I was afraid. Ahaha!
Today was the first day of school, thought that there will be a physics class test but postponed in the end! Studied so much! *sigh*. I feel so stressed up when I can't do amath. Seriously I can't handle cos too much things to remember! Im really afraid. Rawr. Its okay, i must hang on till th end! Nights!

Food!

2011-09-11T19:44:00.001+08:00

Yoyoyo! Haha! Back here to blog again. Today Derrick and Jieming came to my house. Derrick came to practice his F&N practical and Jieming is here to watch and eat!
Kay basically it was okay. I am afraid that I may not have enough time for my three dishes! My timeplan was handed up to Mdm Khadijah so I have no idea how I planned my steps!
I took pictures of food I cooked today. Was quite satisfied with it :)
First picture: fried rice. Quite screwed while cooking though. Overall it was alright(only).
Second picture: chocolate chip muffins. I didnt have a chance to try it. My cousins ate it and my aunt took back for tomorrow's breakfast. :( but my small lil' cousin said it was nice! :D
Third picture: prawn cutlets. It was nice! But the process of shaping the patties was gross. My cousin commented "looks like cow's shit" we were laughing all the way! The coating was quite tedious too!

Hello :)

2011-09-10T11:10:00.001+08:00

Trying out blogger for iPhone! I may be uploading this space more often now cos it will be more convenient for me to blog using phone! See ya around! :)

Australiaaaa!

2011-07-06T20:02:00.000+08:00

Hello peeeeeps! School today was funnn! :D Australians came to our school for performance. Their choir was seriously great! I love this song that they sang, "Somewhere Over The Rainbow"! It's really very nice and i feel comfortable listening to it. :)
So yup! Darren was in the band so he had australians buddies to guide them around. They came in our class and had lessons with us! And ya, took pictures with them! :D

They are so skinny and tall! Jealous max! Heh. I think it's a really wonderful exprience. I like to befriend with friendly people. :) Lastly, i love to SMILE! :D

Happy birthday!

2011-07-02T23:56:00.001+08:00

1 July
Went to celebrate Jiajun and Wanyu's birthday in advance at IMM! :) Was a really fun day!

So yeah. we settled dinner at LJS.

Me and birthday boy.
After dinner, went up to rooftop garden to play. ^^
Me and wendy did not go to the rooftop garden with them. We lied to them. We lied that we've got to go. But we actually went to buy a cake to surprise them! Me and wendy was so afraid that this plan will fail. But still, we managed to surprise them!

Dividing the cake.

Me and birthday girl.

Birthday boy and birthday girl!

Attempting to push people into the water!!

All the pro peopleeeee. hahaaaa.

Taupok!!!!

In 10 push ups, finish that slice of cake. he succeed anyway! but when he finished his last one.. face kena smash by cake by tingwei! xD

hahahaha see his face~

Group photos!
Hehe was a really fun day! I think we all really enjoyed alot~ :) hope for more events like this! :D

(Pictures source: http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.2051808428622.110117.1646876456 )

SCHOOL!

2011-07-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

And yup, school reopen-ed. One week of sch had just went pass and I'm finally squeezing out time to blog here. Yes! School was fun! I love my friends! :D
Nothing much to post about actually... but am here to post pictures took for this week!

So ya i think that's all.

Went imm today with awesome friends to celebrate Jiajun and Wanyu's birthday in advance! They definitely got a shock from us! Stay tune for my next post, with pictures! :)

Town!

2011-06-23T21:32:00.002+08:00

21 June 2011
Hit town with two gossipgirls! Wanyu and wendy! :D Met them at ion orchard at around.. 2pm plus. yup and brought each a cup bubble tea. yeah! it was nice! :)

Played around with straws and took pictures while waiting hehe.

The one on the left is mine, followed by wanyu's, and lastly wendy's. I ordered red milk tea, wendy ordered the same as me, difference was, she didn't request for pearls. Wanyu ordered oreo crush, looks so nice! :D

Walked around, from ion, to wisma, takashimaya, then ngee ann city. Went to cineleisure and saw my father at the carpark, despite to my frantic waving and jumping to catch his attention, he didn't see me. oh well... So i went in for SMUDGEstore, a shop opened by our famous awesome home-grown singer, JJ LIN! :) Things inside was so pricey.. ><

So we moved on to 313 somerset. And i was surprised by the escalator! It's so special and beautiful! Love the lights :)

Settled down at long john slivers to eat! I brought jollibean pancakes :P All time favourite! Hands up if you love jollibean too! :D

So went on to orchard central. We went all the way up to the 12th storey. :D The escalator trip up there was scary though >< I shouted when i looked down and wendy was like, 'DONT SHOUT! YOU ARE MAKING ME SCARED WHEN I'M NOT!' Laughs!

We actually realised that the last storey (which was the 12th) was a very good place to take photos! Nice scenery, sunlight. wahh.. :)

Singapore is such a beautiful place, isn't it? Sometimes in life, we are too busy in our lives that we actually forgotten to appreciate what we have now. We always tend to miss something and regret not treasuring it only after it's gone. Perhaps sometimes we should just take a rest, look around us, and you will realise in life, there are still many wondeful things around you. :)

(Pictures source: http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.1973040739479.108873.1646876456)

SO BORED!

2011-06-17T21:42:00.001+08:00

HEHEHEEH! HELLO EARTHLINGS! :D
I am soooooo bored kay! Trying my best to download maplestory. welllllll i know it's like 'how old alrdy still play maple?!' but friends around me are playing so probably i can just download and play with them! I'm currently waiting for it to say finish then run but only saving alrdy so long liao! Sigh!
I really can't believe that there's ONLY ONE WEEK LEFT OF HOLIDAYS! My ispl is still at around 70% and my engine running low.. I CAN'T COMPLETE CHINESE! :(
Nevermind! I'll TRY MY BEST KAY! :D
Lalalaalaa, i'm so bored now. D: And i love yogalin's songs! :P BUTTTT I WILL NEVER FORGET JJ LIN! :D Still waiting for his new album to be out, which will be around.. year end! SIGH! whysolong! T_T sadmeheheehahaahohoho.

Lalala!

2011-06-11T22:59:00.016+08:00

Hello! I'm sorry for being lazy to blog!

5 June 2011.
And yep, friends came back from cambodia. We went for dinner at bukit timah, had stingray, tofu, kangkong etcetc. Damn full aft tht! And also, thanks alex for that cute pencil case and jiajun for the (NO SUGAR ADDED!) milk chocolate! And also Huizhen for the 'rope'(???) that supposed to be wore on your wrist :)) Love you all so much. <3
I'm sooo sorry. i am lazy to post pictures.
-

ISPL IS KILLING MEEEEEE! Math is like crazy shit. So much yet to complete! And i'm stuck at chemistry worksheet! CHINESE TOO MUCH TO BE COMPLETED! roar! >_<
Counting down... 14 days, exactly 2 weeks to school reopen.. like so long, like so short... ARGH!

Bored!

2011-06-02T20:08:00.000+08:00

Called up those people and happy to know that they had fun! heard that they gonna have a party at 3am! omg i'm super envious of them okay! How i wish i'm there too! Should had put Cambodia as my first choice! Sighhh!

I think i said something wrong.. he looked angry...

Anyway, WHERE IS THE OLD BLOGGER LAYOUT?!

Bon voyage!

2011-06-02T09:25:00.000+08:00

HEhe! they flew off to Cambodia yesterday alrdy! Sent them off in the airport. I miss them kayyy. :( They'll be back on this sunday! And gonna go fetch them and have dinner with them afterwards! omg can't wait lah! Faster sundayyyy :( Anyway! have a safe trip and must take good care of yourselves! buy gifts for me ahhh~ jking. xD I'm happy yesterday! Really damn happy lah (: Just a smile from him melts my heart. heehee :X okayokay~ I hope everything will be fine for them in Cambodia! i'll end here now! Boring day! :(

BYEBYE! ^^

Johor trip!

2011-05-31T13:22:00.000+08:00

29 May.
Snapped off my fringe to bangs... Look totally like a child now kayyy.. T__T And china-ish. omg. i also cut my hair behind tooo! It's kinda short now but still able to tie up :) I'm trying to get use to this hairrrr. i will.

30 May.
Went johor with my f&n teachers and friends! Was a really meaningful and wonderful trip! 90 percent was about eating, eating, and eating. (and ohshitz i think i gained weight....) We went to quite a number of places, first stop, mushroom farm! We ate nasi lemak there. Awesome! The fried mushroom was really tasty. The malay kueh is awesome! Kueh dardar i think. I ate three :P
We then proceed to a tapioca crisp factory. We saw many types of chips! Like how are they made, fried, etetc. Had lunch at kampong area. Although the place wasn't really very clean.. but awesome food :)
Then we went to a farm where we see how tapioca are grown, and many types of flowers. Tasted fried tapioca and roti jala with curry , tasty! :D
We also went to a noodles factory place, we saw how noodles are made! Very nice! I brought a packet of handmade noodles for RM3.50.
Then went to jusco sshopping center! it was really big :D and i finally brought the waffles im always waiting for! i think time wasnt enough for us to shop... only 1hr plus.. :(
After that, went back to sg.
I'm really lazy to post pictures on my blog... but i uploaded everything in my fb..
http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.1935647642746.208426.1588997198&saved
Go in to see if you;re intrested! :D

31 May.
Boring day :( If only the johor trip could be longerrr. My friends flying off to cambodia tmr. :( 5 days leh! Sian lah. should had chosen that as my choice. sighsighsigh T_T

Happy holidays!

2011-05-28T00:23:00.000+08:00

Finally! Holidays are here! I've been waiting for this day for so long. xD Somehow felt that my stress is gone. I like this feeling, hehee. I think my results were pretty shocking. Because it was really a big improvement compared to my last year's results. I'm actually happy with my results, only for english. I got an B4 for english. I know i could had scored better. But my english wasn't good from primary school till now... I have to read more books during this holidays, it's a good chance to read cos i will have a lot of spare time! :)
ISPL is really killing me. Really can't believe that i have to finish them within a month. It's so thick :( I have to plan.... How should i spend my holidays doing them... Somehow i feel that this holidays won't be as 'free' as the holidays i had in the past.... Homeworks piling up... Stress level getting higher and higher.... But i know i have to survive though this. Next year nlvls alrdy! Cannot slack anymore!

2011-05-08T12:50:00.000+08:00

Hello! It's sunday today! Booooring day :(
Anyway, happy mothers' day to all mothers in the world! And also to my mother! Although there are times that you'll scold me till i'm very frustrate, but i know you love me alot. Really sorry for the times that i'd made you angry! Brought Ben&Jerry's ice cream for her, and she said 'why buy so expensive ice cream? buy cheap cheap one can liao mah!' Hahhaa! Cos i know she likes that ice cream! I can't find strawberry flavoured ice cream in my neighbourhood market :( So i brought her favourite flavour of b&j's ^^
Weather is so hot these few days i swear. oh god. i can melt in the hot weather like a ice cream, hahahaa.
I'm so bored now, seriously bored. Waiting for evening, going out with relatives to celebrate mother's day for my grandma(mother's side)! Going imm to have dinner, same place as last year's. Same restuarant. They claimed that the food there is nice. hmmm....
Oh yeah, my SA1 is going to be over soon! just 3 more exams, excluding practical exam for f&n. Amath, f&n paper, and listening compre and i'm done! I think listening compre is a seriously waste of time. Just let me slack at home. Waste 30 minutes doing shitty paper only. -_- Or perhaps put the listening compre exam after amath or f&n paper.
I've been eating too much lately you knowwwwwwwwwwww!!! :( Reason is simple: im bored. I eat when i'm bored, i really have nothing better to do but eat, eat, and eat. I have to stop this habit. Really must. Ganing weight alr laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa T_T fine fine fine i shall stop whining. I'll stop here. gooooodbye!

2011-04-24T12:33:00.000+08:00

HAI! :D Back to blogging. Sunday today, boring day! D: Waiting for time to pass~ Gonna go down to buy muah chee later on :B Pasar malam is ending in four days time!! 27th will be the last day. AWWW!! T_T I'm so gonna miss my muah chee hehehehe!!
Coming down, the first paper we will we taking which is english paper 1 will start on this coming friday... I'm scared! :( Totally not prepared. I don't know how to start with my revision. English, maths, add maths, chinese, physics, chemistry, history, social studies, fnn... WHICH TO START FIRST?! I think there's too many subjects for me to tackle. I really cant handle them :(

Good Friday

2011-04-22T08:32:00.000+08:00

Good morning! It's good friday today! Hehehe, finally an extra day to rest. xD Haven't been updating this space for quite some time already i guess? And i think more than half (or perhaps all) of my readers had gone~ I was lazy and busy to update. School work are getting harder and harder. Sometimes i really find it hard to handle. I go crazy when i can't solve a problem. Grrr... Got to stop this bad habit. I'm really afraid i can't reach my parent's expectations. They expect a 60~ marks for all my subjects. I know it is not actually very high.. But i myself have much higher expectations for myself. Cos i know i can do better than this. But sometimes when i want to self study at home, i feel very tired. very very tired. Sometimes i ask myself, am i not hardworking enough?? Slacking all the way to exams will not be a solution.
Yesterday was school's annual sports day. I was sun bathing at the stadium. It was so humid!!! And four hours at the stadium was really boring. I would rather have classes in school. After that, went to lot one to buy my red bean pancake from Jollibean! Went home, done 2009 emaths paper. It was okay. But i can't complete amaths 2009 paper. Stuck. Literally. Stuck.
Tuition later on at 10am. Was actually at 3.30pm but it changed to morning because it's good friday today. I'll be bringing my amaths 2009 paper to my tuition center later on to seek help from my tuition teacher. I really need help :(
Going to Clementi Mall after tuition with Jieyu! We both wanted to try the food at Toast Box. And both of us are wondering should be buy Koi bubble tea or Starbucks coffee?? It would be around 2pm went we reach there. Will it be okay to drink coffee at the afternoon? What if i can't sleep at night because of the coffee? Hahaha! But i would most probably not be drinking totally coffee, i think i would order drink related to 'Chocolate'. eg "Signature Hot Chocolate", "Caramel Hot Chocolate". Or maybe "Mocha Frappuccino Blended Coffee". I love mocha!!
Counting, it's exactly a week before SA1 exams. I'm afraid, i really am. :(
Anyway, to anyone who is reading this, and will also be having SA1 exams, good luck!

2010-12-19T13:39:00.001+08:00

OMGGGGGGAYYYYY FOUND MY HOLIDAYS HOMEWORK :DDDDDD

after so long....

2010-12-19T00:52:00.000+08:00

HI!!!
I'm sorrrrrrryyy for neglecting this space for so long!! Last update was on oct 9! After counting i actually realised i havent been updating for more than 2 months! But the date i really updated something about my life was sep 16! And also i realised i lost some readers.. hehe. Life in these two months was okay. School holidays started, homeworks done, homeworks lost(-_-).

Half of dec is gone alr. Which means school is gonna reopen in less than one month! Arghhhh!?!!!@#%%%#? I haven't buy my uniform, there's a new design of my school's uni! I really wanna see how it really looks like. I hope school can reopen soon, staying at home whole day is really boring. But then i'm really a'lil afraid of the homeworks projects when sec 3 starts... Amaths is really difficult for my knowledge for maths, i'm afraid i cant cope.. T___T!

alright alright, fianlly i updated something rightright?! i'm lazy to post pictures okay.. bbq on nov was fun! Ms lin joined us! Chatted with her till she left! Miss those lessons with her! :))

Well i think.. i have nothing to continue anymore, hmmm.. so.. BYE!

true or false?

2010-10-09T20:54:00.003+08:00

#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.
#2 When she misses you, she's hurting inside.
#3 When she says it's over, she still wants you to be hers.
#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.
#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.
#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don't let her go.
#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.
#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.
#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.
#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she's beautiful.
#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don't say a word.
#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.
#13 When she's scared, protect her.
#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.
#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.
#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.
#17 When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.
#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.
#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.
#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.
#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.
#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.
#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.
#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.
#25 Don't let her have the last word.
#26 Don't call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.
#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.
#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.
#29 When she's mad, hug her tight and don't let go.
#30 When she says she's OK, don’t believe it, talk to her about it, because 10 yrs later she'll still remember it.
#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.
#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.
#33 Treat her like she's all that matters to you.
#34 Don't ignore her when she's out with you and your friends.
#35 Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.
#37 Let her into your world.
#38 Let her wear your clothes.
#39 When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
#40 Let her know she's important.
#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.
#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"
#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you'd read it too.

Updateee!

2010-09-16T19:23:00.000+08:00

finally back to blogging! haha it has been awhile! sorry for neglecting this space for around 2 months. i have quite a number of things to update for this two months. Firstly, my birthday at 1208. really thanks everyone for the wishes! be it sms, facbook, twitter, real life. oh and qinyu, cindy, tingwei & friends gave me a large surprise! yup, birthday bash! party sprays, and even cream! yuckkk but it's a great day(though i had a hard time bathing HAHA) okay thanks guys <3333 i know my gratefulness cant be expressed in just a blog post. but just, thanks!

next up, common tests. tests were okay ... i didn't really did very badly but all subjects are just.. borderline. hehe but i will try harder kkkk!! after that, september hols came. had been going out for the whole week searching for albums! i know it's a waste of money but.. :p oh! and!! went for bbq on tuesday of the hols. it was really fun! wearing clothes going in pool and got caught by guards for countless times HAHA. shiok lah! hahaha.. after that, went bukit timah for 田鸡粥(it should be frog porridge in english if i'm not wrong...) it was great! but very very very spicy. hahaha!

and one week hols ended just like that, back to studies! today is the first week of school since sep hols ended. nothing can go in my head! really frustrating kkk! just cant get my mind on studies. cant concentrade. Feel like a failure k :/ schools are stressful. exams are around the corner when hols just ended. for around 2 to 3 weeks, exams will start. In this state of mine, how am i gonna score well for exams? sighs!

mood isnt very good for this few months.. having alot of matters in my mind.. :/ who can i turn to? no one seems to care. arrrh, nvm. byebyebye!

P/S: I could have been the one, but i'm not. So, what's next? where do i go from here?

Behind every smile, is just another person who’s feeling fucked up.

2010-07-25T15:49:00.001+08:00

Changed my blogskin and added songs in playlist.
Chopped off 3 inches of my hair and had my fringe cut shorter.
Trip to vivo with liangli yesterday...

Life..?

2010-07-18T18:33:00.004+08:00

Went over to vanessa's house yesterday to celebrate for her.
It was a wonderful day yesterday. Didnt took photos with her...
Happy early birthday thou. :D

Schooldays...
Wanyu brought her dslr with her. We played around with her dslr.
And of course took some pictures...

2010-07-08T19:29:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we can fall in love with someone for all the wrong reasons, and still love them even after all the heartache because most of the time, we can’t pick who we love. And even though we know we shouldn’t love them, we do and always will, because there are just some people in our lives who will get to us for reasons we can’t explain, even when they shouldn’t.

hmm...

freaaaaak.

2010-07-02T00:03:00.001+08:00

At this point of time, I actually realize I had forgotten to bring my glasses back home. It was under my desk I guess. I hope it's still there tomorrow. Nights

Throwing all my sadness away

2010-06-28T20:26:00.000+08:00

Hello! Yes, today is the first day of school, so how's school out there people!!? Hahaha. I didn't managed to fall alseep last night. Didn't sleep for the whole night yesterday. Was actually feeling sleeply at around 4am. But there's not much time before i had to wake up again. texting with wanyu the whole night, she didn't sleep too. haha. Thanks for entertaining me heh.
After all the preparing, i'm finally ready to go school! But actually no.. I'm still in holiday mode. Dead. Met liangli to go school together. reached basketball court. Saw my fellow 2n1-ians. Hehehe. Hair and attire check- i got caught by my hair, was actually okay but.. teacher called me to pin it up. i didn't pin it up, she didn't care too. lol. First lesson, history. Didn't touch history for one year already. Almost forgetten everything. haha. watched a video till half and lesson ended.
PE, ran two rounds. had gastric pain. probably due to the whole sleepless night and not eating anything till then. recess- skipped recess. elaine wasn't feeling well, her skin was cold. she don't have the strength to walk properly. Called her mother and waited her to come and fetch elaine. when elaine went home we realise we left 3min for recess. lol. Brought drinks and went up to classroom.
English. new teacher. i mean new relief teacher lol. i guess she probably wont teach well. she cant even keep the class quiet. lmao. she will be relief-ing our class for 5 weeks. gawd, how are we gonna survive though these five weeks!? gg. lol. chinese- same teacher. classroom as noisy as ever. lol. didn't do holiday homework. she WILL chase us for it. dead. Next up, hom. new teacher again lol. keep talktalktalk. then do sudoku. fell alseep while doing. cher woke me up. was feeling very sleepy that time. Suduko sucks.
After school, went to computer lab with amelia to get the moe feedback quiz done. afer that went to find jieyu, yaqi geokqin adeline and the sec ones. settled some things. after that went to mac eat. zhenhao royce and alex were at mac too. lol. they joined us. alex and royce kept on critising jjlin on the yog cheer. ohyeahohyeahohyeah hey that one. they say retarded. lol wtf. fuck you. chatted then went home.
I think i'm feeling sleepy now. yeah, such an early time. i think i'll sleep soon. see twitter for updates. i may be updating twitter. bye.

Silence speaks louder than words.

2010-06-26T00:12:00.001+08:00

Hello, hello, hello!! Sorry for leaving my blog dead for around half a month. I was really super lazy to update my blog. Well, the holidays are going to end huh? Not much time before school reopens. And i still left some homeworks undone. Next monday it's time for school already. :(. Time really flies. One month passed just in a blink of an eye. Sign, have to get back to studying mode. I have been getting this habit to sleep late at night. Maybe i should mean sleeping early in the morning. During this holidays, the time i slept is around 4 or 5 in the morning. If school starts and i sleep in such time, i won't have enough time to sleep, or rather just stay awake till the time to prepare for school. And yup, the timetable is out. The first lesson for monday is history. What a good lesson to start school with huh. I always scored badly in history. And for this year, the history teacher remained the same as last year. I remember last year's history exam, a question asked for an answer about usa. I answer something like, because usa bomb singapore. Well you should be thinking why i'll came out with such an answer huh! Simply because last year's trend was that Wanyu's nickname was obama. I think is probably because people think she's 'loud'. But i'm not sure why is she called obama. Haha, then obama came from usa right! So i used this answer. Because i really don't know how to answer that, so i just anyhow give an answer. Okay so, wanyu, if you read this post, don't be angry with me! These are all memories of 1n1. :P. Frankly speaking, i haven't done any preperation for school. I didn't cut my hair too, and the first day of school there's hair and attire check. Dead. Histoy lessons are boring too, i hope it won't make me zzzz... (fall alseep!) I don't want holidays to end, seriously plzzz drag it longerrrrrrrrrrrrr. Okay i think i'll be ending my post already, it's getting too long and i'm not leaving any paragraphs so if you managed to read up to this point congratzzzzzz. okay before i end i'm gonna do a quiz from huimei blog as she tagged me to do so.

Do you think there's anyone who's in love with you?
- Nahnahnah.

What are you thinking right now?
- Alot of things are going on my head now, i don't know how to describe.

When you're unhappy , will you show it to your friends?
- Nah, i think i shouldn't let them worry too.

Did you just told someone ILYS? Who?
- Nahh.

Did anyone just told you that they're always there for you?
- Just? No. But days before there is.

You had a bestfriend from the opposite sex?
- Probably yes.

Pass this quiz to15 people: (all randomly choose.)
1 Jieyu
2 Wanyu
3 Qinyu
4 Cindy
5 Liangli
6 Jingxuan
7 Huimei
8 Qidi
9 Eunice
10 Beverly
11 Yaqi
12 Tingwei
13 Kahkeng
14 Malini
15 Amelia
(P/S: I put these name just for the sake of the questions below, to do or not it's your call.)

Who's number two?
- Wanyu? Lol.

Who's the closest to you in your list? How do you know that person?
- Jingxuan? Or maybe Jieyu. both are my secondary school friend.

Who's number one?
- Jieyu.

Who's the oldest in your list?
- All are sec two, only huimei sec one.

Who do you like the person's characters best?
- Well.. idk.

who's number ten dating now?
- Single.

Who is the last person that you said ILYS to?
- No oneee.

who's number six dating with?
- Single.

Do twelve know fifteen?
- Yesyesyes :)

Do one know eleven?
- Yesyesyes :)

Do five know seven?
- Nono.

If number four snatches away your boyfriend/girlfriend, what will you do?
- Well.. i dont think she will.

Among number one to four(exclude number four), who are you closest to?
- Jingxuan.

Among all, who's the prettiest?
- I think it's better to not say, cause too much! :P

Among one to seven (exclude number seven), who's the one you know earliest?
- Tingwei. Primary six.

This is the last , ask those people to do the quiz?
- Nah.

Did this quiz out of boredom. Gonna watch forensic heroes now, bye!

A laugh is a smile that bursts.

2010-06-16T11:33:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was fun.

Reaching for the love that seems so far.

2010-06-08T22:31:00.001+08:00

Hello world! Yes, finally im back. My lappy is backk! But all my data was deleted.. God dammit. I had to download everything again. Argh. Well, how are you people out there? :) I'm fine, but just.. feeling empty inside? Strange feeling. I dont know too. Maybe some things are not meant to be said. Next monday class bbq. Time flies. I mean it shoots like s rocket hahaha. Alright alright. I hope it will be a success kay! And yay, my fringe are getting longer and i swept it to side fringe. OPPS NO MORE BANGS! But when i make my fringe straight again its still bangs.. Darn.

Short post

2010-06-01T22:57:00.003+08:00

Hello people! Sorry for neglecting this space for awhile.. Cause my laptop broke down. Agh. Blue screen. First time lo. Then now can't on alr. Whole black screen and only can move the mouse when I on it. I'll be taking it to repair tomorrow. I hope after the repair the same problem won't come again.. Anyway, June holidays finally came right?! Yup, finally it's a time to rest, and a chance to escape from reality.. Anyway, my mother brought iPod touch for me! Thanks alot mummy. :) currently using iPod touch to update my totally dead bloggg. Went out with qinyu and Cindy today. Went city square mall. Last week went to changi airport to tour. Haha, it was supa cold there. Alright, I shall end my post here now, I'm typing very slow using the keyboard on iPod touch.. Nights! Shall post a more proper post when my lappy finish reparing. ;) Tags will be replied when my lappy is back too. Click my ads and tag okay! I'll be updating Twitter. Look for updates from there. Happy holidays!

17:50, 28.05.10

2010-05-28T19:50:00.000+08:00

I am awake now.

I don’t know why I did those things I did.

I wasn’t sorry then.

I am now.

I am so fucking sorry.

I know it doesn’t change anything.

One word, no matter how many times said, can’t change anything.

You can’t see my heart shrivel up.

You can’t feel my sentiment.

You can’t see me dying inside.

You don’t believe me.

I don’t blame you.

I don’t forgive easily either.

I never ever forget too.

But I am all out of sorry.

We get what we deserve and

my plate is full.

Don’t you get tired of your

head stuck so far up your ass

though?

Peace.

2010-05-26T17:16:00.001+08:00

You can hurt me, you can destory me. You think you done a good job. Yeap, you succeed. You succeed in destorying me, hurting me. But hey, let me tell you something, this game haven't end. And i won't let it end so easily too. I'll make sure i make karma fall on you one day. Yes, you may be correct, this is a game. But think again if you can play better than me. Don't badmouth me behind my back, anything just say it to my face. If you hate me, don't wish to see me, tell it straight to my face. I'll try my fucking best to avoid you. I won't cry. I won't break down infront of you. Remember? I used to be this strong, independent girl. Brave, self sufficient. But don’t you see what you’ve done to me? You’ve broken down my walls and stripped away my defenses. And I am now vulnerable and naked to the bone. But I will hold my head up high, blink away the tears and say goodbye.

Love

2010-05-25T21:48:00.001+08:00

It’s sad when you realise that love doesn’t take away your pain or heal your wounds or salve your conscience or assuage your guilt or save your soul. If anything, it makes a bigger mess of you because you become aware of just how empty you really are when he lets go of your hand, of how alone you really are when his arm is no longer around yours, of how broken you really are when he’s not around to fix you with his kisses, of how battered you really are when he stops rubbing your bruises away, of how incomplete and disjointed and fragmented and scattered you are. If anything, it highlights your flaws and blemishes and showcases your tarnishes and defects because you’ve always thought yourself unloveable. But someone comes along and brings you down to your knees with the rapid firing of his machine heart and the impenetrable firewall mechanisms of your own heart are torn down and trampled upon and he tells you that he loves you, despite of, no, because of your flaws and blemishes and tarnishes and defects and it’s the end of your banal existence.

But you sillily think that with love’s huzzah and pizzaz and splendour and all that fucking jazz, you’ll become a new person, happier and freer, and your steps will be quicker and your head will be lighter and your smile will be brighter and your heart will beat faster and your voice will be louder and you will sparkle and shine and sing and dance. And while of that does happen, it doesn’t negate the fact that when the spotlights dim and the curtains close and the audience leaves and it’s just you and the dark and your demons, you’re still broken inside.

Falling in love is lovely. It’s natural and easy and you find yourself falling in love with him every single day of your life and it gives you such a rush, such a high and rapids are gushing inside of you and the most powerful monsoons are raining down on you the most beautiful torrential rains and giant craters of the grand canyon are ensconced in the cavities of your pulsating heart. And it brings with it the promise of a life less solitary, an existence less dreary, a future less weary, and carnal pleasures and wicked fantasies and perverse depravity, and playful banter and idyllic chatter and serious discussions and loud angry words and hisses and rude glares and muttered curses and veiled insults and crude profanities and contenment and acceptance and security and growth and forever.

But you’re a free spirit and something of an extremist and the thought of giving all of yourself to one single entity for the rest of eternity frightens you and nauseates you when there’s so little of you left and even though you know, deep within the secret crevices of your broken heart, that you have found the one who will stand by your side and walk baby steps with you for as long as it takes until you stumble upon yourself, you will fight him for the rest of your life or at least until you’ve come into your own, until you’ve embraced your own immortality, until you’ve come to terms with the limitations of your humanity, until you’ve learned to love the fucking riot of a mess you are, until you’ve forgiven yourself, until you’ve saved yourself, until you’ve loved yourself.

Until then, you’ll love him the only way you know how, with all of yourself, as broken a mess as you are, because you’ve realised that love doesn’t heal you or save you or rescue you or fix you. It accepts you and nurtures you and cocoons you and hugs you tight and holds your hand and never lets go and waits until you’re ready to take the plunge. It just loves you and makes all your pain a little bit more bearable.

— penguinprostitution

You don’t care do you?

2010-05-24T00:44:00.001+08:00

Hello earthlinggggs! Well, i went out with Shirley, Jingxuan and Jingying(Jingxuan's sister).(: Met up with Jingxuan and Jingying at bustop then bused to Westmall, then met up with Shirley at mrt, trained to Clementi. Searched for Taxi stand. Asked the drivers if they knew how to go the place we wanted to go. But all of them didn't know. .___. Okay, then finally one driver knew, then we hop in. Then reaching, i remember my father brought me to my aunt's house, that road is turn left. I called the driver to turn left, but end up is wrong! Ohno. :X Then called my aunt, she told the driver the way, then reached, the fee was $8.70. But he took $7.. :O Reached, then went to the entertainment room. From 2pm to 4pm, singsingsing. Till the time ended, then uncle drove us to Westmall, then he headed to my grandmother house.
Reached Westmall, we went to mrt. We trained to ChoaChuKang Interchange. Then we sat LRT!! The feeling was like on those kind of children's train at theme parks! Memories!(: We sat LRT from ChoaChuKang to ChoaChuKang! Hahahahaa. Quite lame but still fun! I like lrt.(: After that, we sat 188 from ChoaChuKang to HarbourFont! Heheh, then went to eat KFC, after that walked walk around VivoCity, took some pictures too, pictures will be uploaded. Then damn fun we tried to take a pic of all of us, then put self timer mah, but end up a woman walked past, just right the pic was he leg!! She said 'sorry ah'. We saw the picture then laugh like mad. xD Then walked to pet shop, saw some cute little pets. :D Yeah then after that bused back home. Saw Cheryl on bus. Hahaha.

And yeah, tomorrow there's school. Weekends just ended like that!! But school holidays coming soon too. ^_^ Came to think of it, i prefer being in school. Seriously i have really nothing to do at home!! :( I only can use lappy~ But nothing to play leyy. I rather go out everyday. But i can't, my parents dont allow!! I can go out for like two or three times a week? Anyway, i hope the june class outing will be a success!! Damndamn looking forward to it. (:
Oh yeah, Mrs Loh is leaving BBSS soon.. :'( Seriously not only me, even the whole class can't bear her to leave too. Yeah i admit, i do hate her. I hate her for being too strict. Sometimes when she come to the class, the first thing she do is to check our socks, hair, skirts. I really don't like this. She want us to adjust our socks, skirts and clip up our hair before sitting down. There's one time when some of the people in class didnt complete her homework. Those who didn't do need to stand up and complete it. And if they didn't complete, she won't start the lesson. I was one of them who didn't complete it. I stood up, i tried to complete my homework, but end up when everyone had done finish, i haven't. She asked me to get out of the classroom, then she continued teaching. And outside the classroom i'm still trying to complete my homework when she doesn't even gives a fuck. But i know.. She did all these is not to pinpoint me or whatsoever. But.. to let me know that i have to complete her homework. I know she did all these are for my own good. 20th May, friday. She assigned us to do Quick writing, the title was, Two gifts i would like to receive. Jiajun was asked to said his wishes. He said.. he would like to receive is another capable teacher like Mrs Loh. Although sometimes she was strict and mean, she's still a good teacher. She taught us alot of things. While jiajun was saying, i saw Mrs loh wiped her tears away. She may not seem like crying.. But i saw her wiping her tears away. She can't bear to leave BBSS too isn't it. But, she had to. She had reach the retire age. She needs to rest. Although i can't bear her too. But i hope, after the days of retiring, she can enjoy her life and live till very old. (: Mrsloh! I don't know if there'll be a chance of you reading this, but there's one thing i want to tell you, is to takecare of yourself wherever you are! (:
Ms Ngiam too. Although she didn't teach us, i know she's a good teacher. Takecare too. (: Last year, there was other teacher left us too, yeap, i do miss them. I hope they fine out there. (: Okay, a long + crappy post today right? Yeahyeah. It's now 12:44am and i'm still posting.. And my msn there's only some people online. I shall go sleep now, there's school tomorrow!! Nightsss. (:

I’m losing faith in love.

2010-05-21T15:06:00.000+08:00

Hello earthlings~ Back to posting alrdy. School was okay these few days. But i hate boring lessons. Leonard sitting behind be keep bullying me. >;( And anyway, i edited the colours of my blog. Hope it looks okay. And today is friday. Tomorrow will be weekends again. I hope i can go out tomorrow. Hopefully can. Feel like going vivo again but it's boring too. Hahaha.
Sometimes the truth hurts, it just hurts so much. But what can i do now? I rather know the hurtful truth then being lied too. But the truth hurts.. I dont want to accept the truth, but i know in the end of the day i must accept the fact. I want things I can’t have. I daydream about getting them, and before I know it, it’s time for me to go to bed. Another day wasted.
According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four legs, four arms and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them apart, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other half. I hope that my other half is out there somewhere.

How to detect liars!

2010-05-19T16:15:00.000+08:00

A person who is lying to you will avoid making eye contact. If they won’t look you in the eye’s or if they look you in the eye’s while saying “I’m looking you in the eye’s, so I’m not lying.” They are probably lying. They will normally raise their voice, get defensive and will totally want to change the subject. Go with your first gut feeling that feeling is normally right.
Hands touching their face, throat & mouth. Touching or scratching the nose or behind their ear. Not likely to touch his chest/heart with an open hand.
The guilty person may speak more than natural, adding unnecessary details to convince you… they are not comfortable with silence or pauses in the conversation. Also, the guilty person use humor or sarcasm to avoid a subject.
Timing and duration of emotional gestures and emotions are off a normal pace. The display of emotion is delayed, stays longer it would naturally, and then stops suddenly. Timing is off between emotions gestures/expressions and words. Example: Someone says “I love it!” when receiving a gift, and then smile after making that statement, rather then at the same time the statement is made.

A liar will use your words to make answer a question. When asked, “Did you eat the last cookie?” The liar answers, “No, I did not eat the last cookie.”A statement with a contraction is more likely to be truthful: “ I didn’t do it” instead of “I did not do it”.
If you believe someone is lying, then change subject of a conversation quickly, a liar follows along willingly and becomes more relaxed. The guilty wants the subject changed; an innocent person may be confused by the sudden change in topics and will want to back to the previous subject.
Excessive gestures are important body language signs indicating lies. In a subconscious effort to enhance believability, a liar will promote his/her words with unnaturally pronounced gesturing. Also on a subconscious level, the body language serves to divert attention from the dishonest words and face.
Shifting from foot to foot is often the body language of a liar. Similarly, a liar doesn’t always keep his/her feet flat on the ground (whether standing or sitting). This body language generally falls under signs of the “flight instinct” category, which stems from fear or discomfort–both emotions that are triggered by telling lies.
A liar frequently mumbles or speaks in a lowered, monotonous tone, especially at the exact time lies are being uttered. Such modulations in speech are primarily signs that either the liar lacks confidence that the lies are believable, or that the liar feels guilty about telling the lies. From a body language standpoint, these signs are often accompanied by a lowered head and slouching shoulders.
Justification – Attempting to justify every detail with lengthy explanations . Also, the lies uses (and particularly overuses) language like “honestly,” “believe me,” “to tell the truth,” etc. S/he is almost certainly being deceptive.

Quite true! I'll try detect liars one day. ;)

I want things to be more than okay.

2010-05-18T22:10:00.004+08:00

School was okay today. I am bored, now. Very bored. Bored bored bored. SCHOOL TOMORRRROW! Yay. I feel sleepy now. Maybe i'll sleep early today. Hehez. And my facebook is very laggy now. >< Took so long to loaddd.

If you think i neglected you all. If you think i did not treat you all as the most important ones. I have nothing to say. I don't know how to change myself. Maybe is love that made me change into like this. Even me myself noticed that i had changed alot. But there's nothing i can do. Yeah i admit all i care is 'him' but not you all. I treated him the most important than everything. I don't know why i will become like this. I changed alot this year, yeah. I tend to treat friends more important last time. But now, I changed. I know myself. No one will know me more than i know myself. I know what is happening. I know your feelings. But i can't help it, sometimes i tried to control myself but i can't. I hope you can understand. Amelia, Clarice, Jingxuan, Liangli and Shirley. I am sorry.

Tell me that we belong together.

2010-05-17T21:41:00.002+08:00

Hello!! I'm back to posting kekeke. Today is monday! Didn't went back school for chinese because school's close! So teacher bobian lor, call us do our homeworks at home! :P Ohyeah, so slacked at home as usual.
Went out to VivoCity with Liangli just now. Walkwalk around, we promised each other to SPAM pictures! I should had brought my cam~ We took alotalot of pictures. x.x My phone memory gna gg liao la. Next time remember to bring my cam! But anyway, i tried to find my cam but i can't find too. T___T
We walkwalk around VivoCity. First went to HarbourFont Center, can't find where is VivoCity, then walkwalk finally found. We went to the last floor water there playplay, heh. We also went to the playground there. Wanted to go back home, then can't find HarbourFont Center! Cause need go back interchange take bus.
Then walkwalk finally found HarbourFont Center. x.x And yeah, uploaded pictures. Slowly see. There're more, everything at facebook. Cause i don't want to upload so much, later my blog become very laggy. I only upload some nicer ones and more interesting ones. Hehehe.

Ate dinner already at HarbourFont Center already, then went to Liangli's house awhile. Homed at 7pm plus. Fun and long day. Yawn, and tomorrow there's school! Yay, i prefer school than staying at home. Rotting. And using com all day long, like no life hor agree. Hair and attire check tomorrow! Aghhh, gna cut my nail already. Tooooodles.

Webcamm!

2010-05-16T13:55:00.000+08:00

Hello readers! Today is sunday, and yeah. I only completed one e-learning homework.. Dammit. I only how to do english, others gg. Who can help me? x.x Dead. Okay had you noticed that my blog had a new thing? WHICH IS JJ LIN ANIMATION HAHAHAHA. It's under my playlist! I found it damn cute. ^^
Anyway, i have to go back to school tomorrow, siansian x1000. Actually don't need go back cause got e-learning mah.. Then my chinese cher la, want us go back complete homework. _|_ Siansian x10000. Rotting whole day though, had no intention to do e-learning already la, i don't even understand what they're meaning. Aghhh. GG lor.

Yesterday night playplay webcam with my sister! Okay it's lame but quite fun la hahaha. Okay i posted for today. Toodles.

A false sensation of happiness, it contains a feeling of warmth

2010-05-15T01:24:00.001+08:00

Hello earthlings! I'm back to posting yeah. (: Sorry for not posting yesterday, was lazy. :X So i'll post now. :D

Thrusday
Had chinese listening compre exam in the morning. The exam is only shortly 30 minutes. Okay, after that, then went to westmall to change clothes. It was only 8 or 9am plus, and almost all shops are closed. Went to toilet changed clothes, then went to met liangli.
Then mrt to Orchard. Found a seat then sit till got anot people already, get off the seat to let other people to sit. Then stood for almost half an hour. Agh, when reached Orchard, my legs are very tired! Heh, then went to ion walked awhile, after that wanted to sit bus 16 to east coast.
The bus stop is on the opposite side, and there was many cars, so we decided not to jaywalk then. We were keep finding the underpass. My aunt say there's a tunnel to go the opposite, but keep can't find. End up i found it! Clever me. Woots.
Then reached the opposite side, sat 16 to east coast, raining cats and dogs. Agh. Had alot of fun on bus! ^^ Keep laughing and laughing, and joking! Heh, then we asked the uncle which stop to stop. He guided us, thanks yeah. ^^ If he didn't guide us, we wont be able to reach there.
Got off the bus, it's still raining. Agh. Then i took out my uniform to cover my hair. We found a underpass to go east coast. Walked though the underpass, quite scary though. Many tv shows those being raped one are flimed at that kind of places.
Reached east coast! Like finally. Then wanted to find Jieyu and Yaqi they all. But we can't find them. So we stayed at that area and they will come and find us using bicycle. Went to play sand. Took some pictures. (:

After awhile, Yaqi found us. Jingxuan don't want to follow her. So i followed Yaqi they all. (: They cycled, i walked. Cause idk how to cycle! I know this is very embarrassing but... Hahaha. :P Okay, then walkwalkwalk then found Jieyu. She was learning how to ride a bicycle. I helped her to hold the bicycle and she tried to cycle!
Then we cycle till half, saw the boys. Tingwei and Jiajun keep bullying me. Agh, they keep us bicycle to scare me. They ride the bicycle towards me, then i run. They say they helping me to lose weight! Grrr. Okay, thanks anyway. LOL.
Then they ride the bicycle around, i walk with the bicycle. My speed was same as Jieyu cause she learning ma. :P Then we went to the betty there play sand. Made some words with the sand. The boys wanted to push Jieyu to the sea! Then 1/4 of Jieyu is sand, they want bully her fail.
After that, went to washup and return bike. Waited the boys then we bused to Bedok bustop, then they sat MRT back to Jurong east. I went to Boonlay, cause need take new specs. :P

Yeap, this is how i look like when i am wearing my specs! Looks weird though, but i only wear it only when i need it, like when in clasroom. :P Okay, after taking specs, bused back home.
Tired but awesome day though. I hope there'll be more outings like this. :P But i have to remind myself, BRING SLIPPERS IF YOU'RE GOING TO A BEACH! I forgotten that go beach need to bring slippers. Grrr.

Friday (Today)
TGIF! Yes, it's finally friday. (: Today should be elearning day and i shouldn't be going to school but... i didn't complete my chinese homeworks so i had to go back to school. Argh.
Woke up by mummy at 7.15am. She went out after tht, then i continue to sleep, then clarice called me at 7.51am. I SUDDENLY WOKE UP! Cause need reach school at 8 AM!!!!!!! I brushed teeth then changed to pe then chiong out house go mac meet them. Reach alr, then slack there awhile. Jingxuan told teacher that we'll be late. 8D. Wear slippers. :P Jingxuan helped me to block the guard while entering, passed, yay!
Went classroom, done one zhou ji. Grr. Was tiredd. Took some pictures with liangli. Dont mind my tired face. Cause woke up very early, :(

Went out school after that. I went to market to eat. Was damn damn hungry la! :P Then treated Liangli and Shirley ice milo. Hehehehe. I ate wanton mee. Shirley also . :D

Ate finish went Westmall to Clarice and Jingxuan. Saw qinyu! Went popular with Qinyu first. I brought two JJ disc. 2 for $10. (: Qinyu spon me $2! Cause no enough money! :( Thanks ah qinyu! Aisini. Then went back to koufu to find the girls.

Reached home at around 4pm plus, then went for tuition at 5pm. Sian lorrr. Okay, long post today, and yeah i finally posted huh. Be thankful! It's 1:24am now. And i'm posting for you all. Alright, i'm tired. Turning in soon. Nights.

2010-05-14T00:16:00.002+08:00

If a girl cries in front of you, it

means that she couldn't take it anymore...

A girl wont cry easily, except crying infront of the person who she love

the most, she becomes weak..

A girl wont cry easily, only when she loves you the most,

she put down her ego.

If a girl cries bcoz of you

please hold her hands firmly,

she's the one who would stay with you for

the rest of your life.

If a girl cries bcoz of you,

please dont give her up, maybe bcoz of

your decision, you ruin her life.

When she cry rite in front of you,

when she cry bcoz of you, Look into

her eyes, Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think....

Which other girl have cried wif pure

sincerity, Infront of you, And bcoz of you?

She cry not because she is weak, She

cry not bcoz she wants your sympathy or pity,

She cry, Because crying silently is no

longer possible, the pain, hurt, n

agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside...

Think about it...

If a girl cry her heart out 2 you, And

all because of you, Its time to look

back on wat u have done, Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it. Coz one day....

It may be too late for regrets..

Agh. Post tomorrow. Maybe. (:

Quiz!

2010-05-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

Ohyeah~ I;m bored. :( Left one more exam for tomorrow, listening compre. (: 30 minutes only. Cool! Should be going east coast tomorrow with Jieyu they all and jingxuan. Anyway, i took a quiz from here. :D And this is my results. Quite shocked!

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Hahaha, read it. I'm quite shocked with the answers. :D Like the last one, they say i am mature?!!? Hahahaha, i don't think so. :P

You don’t need water to feel like you’re drowning, do you?

2010-05-10T22:43:00.001+08:00

Hello! :D Back to posting. Had maths paper today, it was super tough! What a killer. Agh, paper one was still okay. Er, paper two uh. I think i will fail that. I left 8 marks blank.. GG.COM ... I done my art! Woot. Spent this afternoon painting it. I know it sucks but.. But than nothing right? :P I think i will flunk my maths, badly. :( Agh. But at least i tried my best. I think my science gg already la hor, teacher say i keep give funny answers. ^^v. Kay, i end here already. Bytheway i heard a nice song!

They lyrics far kin wonderful.

I never wanted to leave, but you never gave me a reason to stay either.

2010-05-08T00:54:00.001+08:00

Hihihihi! \m/ I am currently having my MYE now. Heh. Lit, science and geography was damn difficult (Well anyway, i didn't study for it too..) This three subjects i totally give up le la, guess how much i got for my science class 2/25 LAST IN CLASS HEHEHE CLAPCLAPCLAP. I have Mathematics at MONDAY! And art at TUESDAY. I HAVEN EVEN FUCKING TOUCH MY ART AND I JUST BROUGHT MY A3 ART PAPER. I printed out art pictures, maybe i'll be completing my first hand observation by tomorrow, i mean MUST COMPLETE. I MUST. I still have alot of things to do for art. And i NEED TO REVISE FOR MATHS, AND GUESS WHAT MY MATHS TEXTBOOK IS AT CLASSROOM!!! Okay, i forgotten to take back home ma. )= Sadcase :P But jingxuan is lending me the textbook, okay i mean share, SHARE ... I think my maths diedie must score well la! My other subjects suck like SHIT. Liddat cannot la, i must jiayou for maths. MUST!!!! Argh. But for maths there are still some topics which is totally CMI. The topics tested are - congruence, solving equation n inequality, cartesian coordinate n linear, proportion, expanding and factorizing algebraic expression, AND sec1 topic may ALSO come out. My cartesian coordinate n linear is fucking cannot make it one i tell you. Idk what the teacher was talking about when she was explaining. zzz. And idw listen also la, damn confusing. I shall do some worksheets can alr la, at least i revised something rightrightright! *Pats on my shoulder* FIRST TIME SAYING THAT I AM GOING TO REVISE OMG HEHEHEHE. Okay la, i off alr. I damn tired ley. AND SEE THE FUCKING TIME IT'S 12:54AM LE I POSTING FOR YOU ALL LEY BE HONORED OKAY HEHEHEHE. my eyes rly closing alr la. BYE.

2010-05-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

Ohmygod how cute can he be!

Quizquiz!

2010-05-03T19:46:00.001+08:00

I'M BORED!

Alphabet A-Z!

A - Amelia
B - Benjamin
C - Chiamjiajun
D - Dihan
E - Elaine
F - Farmjieyu
G - Geok qin
H - Huzaifi
I -
J - Jingxuan
K - Kahkeng
L - Leonard
M - Mingjian
N - Niki
O -
P -
Q - Qidi
R - Royce
S - Shirley
T - Tingwei
U -
V -
W - Wanyu
X - Xueqi
Y - Yaqi
Z - Zhenhao

Can R and S be together in BGR? -Royce & Shirley
Uhm. Maybe. But high chance no.

How is Z related to you? -Zhenhao
Classmates..

Does Y knows Z? -Yaqi & Zhenhao
Yeah.. (:

If C betrays you, will you kill her/him? -Chiamjiajun
Depends. But not to the extend of killing him.

If K steals your girlfriend,wad will you do? -Kahkeng
Hehe, give them blessing lor. :$

What if L tells you tat he/she have a crush on you? -Leonard
Omg.

Will you and M get into a fight? -Mingian
Maybe, haha. If he make me angry lor.

Who does K have a crush on? -Kahkeng
Heh, idk! Go find a girlfriend soon la sista.

What if W calls you a bastard? -Wanyu
Sorry i am girl it's bitch not bastard please correct your grammar. :S

Whats the relationship bewteen you and E? -Elaine
Classmates. :)

Who does Z likes? -Zhenhao
I don't know.. I hope i know.

Who is I best friend? -
-

What colour does F like? -Farmjieyu
Hotpink? :D

Where does F live? -Farmjieyu
Hehe. Ask her lor. (:

Did you and C had a fight before? -Chiamjiajun
Fight, no. But argue, yes.

Who is X's best friend? -X
-

What can you say about G? -Geokqin
Gentle. Heh.

What if J tells you that she/he have a crush on you? -Jingxuan
Haha! She everyday also have a crush on me one la! :D

Inconsolable.

2010-05-03T12:58:00.000+08:00

It's like a roller coaster.
it just goes up and down and up and down and up and down.
nothing's gonna help it.
preventing oneself from falling deeper yet there's nothing to salvage it.

trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.
trying my very best to stop myself from falling deeper.

hoping for a better ending, not for you but for me.
for once, i want to he selfish.
for once, i don't want to give in.
how am i going to let you know?
if i ever let you know, will the ending be the type that i want?
will you ever give me a chance?

It really starts to hurt when I pretend it doesnt.

2010-05-01T00:28:00.002+08:00

HELLO EARTHLINGS !!!! I'm sorry for the lack of updates. Life isn't well for me.. Ahh, nothing much actually. I'm fine. Shall post a short post then sleep. So how's life out there people? :) I suddenly miss pirmary six. Looking back, if i didn't choose bukit batok sec as my secondary school, how would my life be. CRAP! I have wild imagination hehehe. I looked back at my archives and realised i do changed. I don't know what i changed to, i don't know what are the changes of me. But i think i changed. I tend to be happy all the time last year. But this year don't seem to be a good one for me. I am not happy like last time. I have worries. And sometimes when i'm alone i think alot of things. I make alot of guesses. Of what people will do to me in the near future. Or how they think of me. I start to make theories, but in the end i realised all my theories are wrong. It is plainly because people around me had been cheating me with lies from the start. And i was the stupid one who believed. If I were to look back, I would never believe that that person was once me. I wouldn’t recognize that girl because she’s so different from who I am now. But I guess changing and moving on is part of growing up. I’m growing up and finding out what kind of person I want to be for the rest of my life. And maybe in the future, more changes will come, but as for right now, this is who I’m proud to be. I don’t, can’t and won’t be who you want me to be. But in trying not to be, I think I kind of lost track of who I want me to be. I keep wondering where did I go wrong. Maybe I didn’t go wrong at all. Maybe things are going to turn out the way they’re meant to and nothing’s going to stop them. Some things are easy to control and work out. But some things you just have to let go. So instead of asking why it turned out like this, I should just accept that this is how it is. There is no way to change it, but I can love it. I want to love it.

I'm tired. Goodnight.

Far away

2010-04-28T19:44:00.000+08:00

h3h3h3x

Argh...

2010-04-24T23:57:00.003+08:00

I eat styrofoam plates. Yum.

People make such big deals out of the littlest of things; stupid petty dramas. So immature. And I’m sitting here, laughing now. After everything that has happened, I’m sitting here laughing. Not at you, but at everyone else. Because after what happened, or what didn’t happen, things can never go back to the way they were. It’s like the world has tilted on its axis, like the universe has permanently shifted.

My life has gone in three directions: up side down.

Words have the power to destroy, to impress the mind without the exquisite horror of their reality.

2010-04-23T22:38:00.002+08:00

I used to think you were my friend. Sometimes, I still do. But when it comes down to it, friends do not treat each other the way that you treat me. I’m sick of brushing off your snide remarks, of pretending they don’t mean anything. It doesn’t matter whether you were joking or not, it still hurts. Words hurt.

Wait and see

2010-04-22T20:30:00.003+08:00

You believe this is a game, and you may be right. But if you think you can play it better than me, think again. I don’t think people realize exactly how much pain I am in right now. But I will bite my lip and hold my tongue, pull it together, suck it up. Because the show must go on.

All good things come to an end.

2010-04-21T22:44:00.001+08:00

Hai. I'm backkk. Anyway, i cut bangs for about a week ago. It was very short. But it will grow soon ah. So it's okay. But the boys kept laughing at my bangs. Bangbangbang. Lol. Okay. I posted pictures of my class, Jingxuan took those pictures using my phone. I think my blog is kinda plain so i posted. Haha.

I can’t help but remember everything. It’s just the way I’m wired. I mean, when I see somebody, I think about all they’ve ever said and done. All the little things, the good and the bad, it all comes flowing back to me.

2010-04-20T21:31:00.004+08:00

5000) are you ignoring me on purpose?

i ignored you because you didn’t talk to me but then I felt bad so I ended up talking to you but now, perhaps that you noticed it so now you’re ignore me now? this is killing me. i mean, since when do you see me and just pass me by like its nothing?
I really like you. I really do. And it’s like, I don’t know if you like me or not. Even if we’re supposed to be just friends, why the avoidance? I hate this feeling.
It’s like, I don’t know how or why, but out of the whole crowd, I can easily spot you with no difficulty. Do you know how much it pains me to see you just walk away and not sit down and talk to me?
Do you know how much you are hurting me? Do you?

2010-04-17T00:02:00.001+08:00

Sometimes,i really hope that i can hold you back and not like two strangers walking past.

I am tired. Of everything.

2010-04-08T21:20:00.004+08:00

*Pictures taken from Jieyu's facebook. Thanks for uploading!
Hello.. These days are not going well for me. :( Maybe i just can't fall in love with anyone. I am a failure, bigbig failure.. I still feel lonely, this is my fault, I never go out. I'm always inside doing this all day. I like doing this all day, I dont even know why I do. I know he never had any romantic feelings for me, but in that split second when I flashed back to how it used to feel I felt amazing and then in that next split second it was like a mini heartbreak. All that wasted love, those tears, that torment was flushed right back and bam it hit me. I sometimes honestly feel that I will never be loved. Just a little nick where no one will ever see. But that would be a step back. I cant let myself do that again I'm starting to have those thoughts again. The thoughts about how I could kill myself. Would I actually cut myself deep enough this time. Taking all my co-codamol tablets, throwing myself in front of a car, jumping off a building and breaking my neck. It scares me sometimes how I entertain myself with these thoughts but I dont even know myself anymore. I've changed myself so much over the past year I'm starting to look in the mirror and see nothing. What I think is worse in all of this, I know that there wont be anybody to save me even if I tried anything. And i really hate that. Well I will just have to act happy outside to show my friends, I. Am. Okay. I deleted your number on my cell even though it’s silly because I memorised your number. I blocked and deleted you off msn because I know we’ll never talk to each other too. I deleted you off all these, but i think about you. Every. single. day.

I’m a fool in love. a big, pathetic fool.

2010-04-07T16:29:00.002+08:00

If you think I’m irritating you, just tell me. Stop keeping me waiting, stupidly waiting for your message, checking my phone every 5 minutes.. Do you know how much it hurts when I message you, wait for your reply for hours, come home and see you online and secretly hoping that you would send me a message saying that your phone low batt or spoiled so you didn’t reply? I think I shouldn’t message you or msn you anymore.. until you start the conversation first.. But until now, I’m still checking on my phone, waiting. Why am I so dumb why do I love you.

Forgetting you is like trying to remember someone i never knew.

2010-04-04T13:56:00.001+08:00

HELLO EARTH! I am super bored right nao. :( Listening songs at youtube as i can't play songs on embed players! >:( Damn feddup. I only can watch videos at youtube site.When i wanted to watch video from embed players, it will say 'an error occured, please try again later' WHATEVER! IT IS NOT INTERNET PROBLEM! I CLICK THE VIDEO AND IT GOES TO THE YOUTUBE SITE THEN IT CAN PLAY. Arghhh. Wtfuck is this sial. Damn itttt. Ohyeah and i brought a pair of geek specs. 10 dollars without degree. I know it's quite a waste of money but i don't care. :P School tomorrow!!!! Sian die, but at least it's better thn being bored at home.

[EDIT]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO QINYU AND JIEYU! :D

[/EDIT]

It’s always been you, and it always will be.

2010-04-03T01:49:00.002+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. :) Today was normal. Just keep thinking that today is saturday! Hehe. Went 112 with Jingxuan and Liangli, then went to market awhile. Then head over my house. Jingxuan, Liangli and me used computer. Signed in Jingxuan msn account. Then saw myself online. Was like WTF!? Lazy to elaborate about it. Jingxuan watch lollipop's concert. Me and Liangli used computer. Took some pictures while using computer. Teehee, they left at seven. Watched a short movie. 25 minutes one. It's JJ movie - The killa. WOOT! I love it. He's damndamndamn handsome please. :P I'm starting to love JJ againnn. Heheheee!

one step forward; two steps back

2010-03-31T22:23:00.001+08:00

one step forward. two fucking steps back. the past won’t let go. the shackles won’t come loose. the bleak future stares into the blacks of my eyes. take this machete. slice my arteries open and tear up my ligaments. let my synovial fluid spill over. hack at my skeleton and crush my bones. do whatever the fuck you want. i won’t die.

And absence makes the heart grow fonder

2010-03-30T22:28:00.001+08:00

H E L L O !!! Just done my art, had totally no idea what to draw so... Just drew back view. Well i know it's ugly but who gives a fuck? At least i done it. Uhmmm, i went westmall with Adeline today. Homed at six. I hope tomorrow will be a better day. Nights.

My heart was racing like a sprinter that tripped and fell.

2010-03-30T00:02:00.003+08:00

School was okay today. Went mac after school, jingxuan and shirley came over my house to do some art works. Watched videos together, some scenes was damn funny. Hahaha. Haven complete my painting for art, too lazy to do. Decided to do it at recess tomorrow. Thn give tcher.
I miss those times. Come back to me..

Reaching for the love that seems so far

2010-03-29T00:57:00.002+08:00

Hi, lazy to update blog. turning in soon, so a just a short post here. There's school tomorrow, fck. And art too. Argh, had to bring a photo of myself. I brought a thumbnail size k2 photo. Hahaha, lame enough. Alright, byebye.

Soo I say it in a prayer
And hope my dreams will take it there
Where the skies are blue, the sea is once again... my love.
All the seasons coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, the sea is once again...

You were worth the fight, but I couldn’t fight forever.

2010-03-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

Wanyu called me to post now so... Hello earthlings! :> Today was quite fun! School- Mother tongue reading first period! The boys were called to get out of the class by mrs goh! Hahaha! Thn i talk with them, they joke around thn make me laugh, thn mrs goh call me go outside too! Wahahaha. After that thn went for DnT, got scolded by tcher for nt doing dnt holidays homeworks! :P 14 people didn't do. 7 people done it, but only 3 done correctly! :S Hahaha, thn did some drawings. Drawdrawdraw till third one le, thn tcher tell me i did wrongly! Should count the number of grid not dot! Arghhh, then need redo. Erased everything! All Xinwei fault lorrr! Tell me is count by dots de. dotdotdot! Thn spent my whole recess doing it thn do finish le thn left 5min for recess, eeeee. Then stayed at classroom chatted with girls. Okay thn after that was chinese, siandie! Chatted with amelia when it's chinese. (: Thn english! Late!!! Stood outside computer lab for around 10min. Went in continue essay. Managed to do finish it and printed it out! Hehehehehehe. Thn went back class for geo, tcher say want meet us fr 5min. He gave us chocolates hehehee. Cause that time got a cher came our class to see his performance, he passed! Thn thanks us. hahaha. After school le thn bused amelia house for lunch and she need to change to tanktop. Geokqin went home change first. Eat curry instant noodles! Spicy!!! D; They say not spicy one, hahaha. Ate finish thn went to take bus to jurong thr. Clarice went home first cause she not going swimming with us. D; Thn went up the bus, geokqin inside, cause we say we want sit same bus together. Reach jurong thr, then walked to jurong east swimming complex thr. Changed to swim suit with jingxuan and applied sunblock. Go play waterrrr! Went lazy pool frst, the water can make me move sia so scary one. hahaha. After tht went to wave pool, i dont dare go 1.3m de T__T Scary lah, 1.2m i alr scared like sai like lor. 1.3m i can't.. sorry amelia and jingxuan and geokqin :( Thn it started raining, went to shelter thn chatted awhile till rain is gone, thn go lazy pool again. The strong water made me lost balance then fell down omg then i cant breathe in water almost die omg omg omg i am very scared hahahaa. Then chatted while sitting at the lazy pool staircase thr. Came out from the pool at 4pm with geokqin. Thn went bathe, bathe finish le go kfc, geokqin brought popcorn chicken and fries. Hehe, after tht took 187 back home. [: Went home put all wet clothes in washing machine thn go tuiton le. Hehe, tuition very sian yah. Homed at 8pm plus. On com, msn facebook and 霹靂MIT. Thn wanyu suddenly call me post i say later she say now. :@ Hahaha okay i post liao hor. Very good right tytytyty. Kaykay, byeee. (:

I need someone who won’t give up on me.

2010-03-24T23:35:00.002+08:00

Hello hello! 8D Sorry for not posting a proper post these few days. >< Mood wasn't very good and had some friendships problems. But now can i say it's solved? We treat each other invisible in class. Maybe this is the best choice for us.. (: Continue to posting, tomorrow have PE and art! Arghhh! For art i only complete 2 bodies. I need to draw one more body with clothes th. But i think no time le. LOL. Tmr art le and see what's the time now. Later i off com thn sleep le. No time do le! Anyway i also lazy do art. :x Hahahas, uhmm. PE i hope tomorrow teacher won't call us run uh. :( I suck in running. :x Cmi la! Hahaha. I'm scared of the literature act. Very scary, i scared i can't memorise my lines and xiaxuey infront of ppl, omggg. But my lines are not really long and alot. I hope i can overcome the memorising of lines. ^^ And my actions too! Arghhh. Clothes too, i haven found what kind of clothes to wear sia! Wthhhh, what a mother can wear? LOL. Anyway i'm acting a cast called Mum. Ha, i'm still figuring out what to wear. Or maybe just wear simple t-shirt and shorts can le right?! But must be more auntie abit ley. HAHA, tie bun. Use the kiap to kiap the bun! Omg damn auntie can! Hahaha! Okay i found something i think it's funny.

Fuck all you fucking emo teenage fucks

George Carlin said: Fuck the children.

Afuckingmen.

Aren’t you fucking sick and tired of whining the fuck about your stupid sorry pathetic lives just because Mummy refuses to increase your weekly allowance and Daddy doesn’t let you get a new pair of Vans. You fucking kvetch on and on and fucking on about how fucking depressed you are and how life’s a bitch and how you’re miserable and you have all these fucking mood swings. What the fuck for? You have it so fucking easy, you stupid fucking children. You don’t have to work for your money. You don’t have to worry about paying the bills or putting food on the table or managing the household or looking after a house full of living breathing beings. You don’t have marital problems. You don’t have to deal with work politics. You don’t have to take the fucking bullshit the government throws at you. All you fucking fuckbuckets have to do is go to school, study, play, have fun and make your parents happy. So why the fuck are you contemplating suicide? Why the fuck are you fucking yourself up and being a fucking attention whore?

If you’re too fucking stupid to handle school and your friends and life and all that fucking jazz and you want to kill yourself, expect no sympathy from me. I’m all for it. You fucking should die, you stupid emo fucks.

So you stupid emo teenagers can take your fucking meaningless temper tantrums and shove them up your fucking assholes and focus all that energy on school and sports and whatever fucking shit you need to get done and stop being shallow cumbubbles who think the world should revolve you and your stupid ‘no one loves me’ misery.

Hahahah, the funny part it was keep repeating the 'fucking' word! But it's quite true uh. Although sometimes i have moodswings too, but came to think that our stress can't be more then adults. Yeahhhh? Haha.

Alright, i finally posted. Tag more and click my ads! Nights!

Let time rewind to the time when we're strangers

2010-03-22T22:42:00.001+08:00

Ohk, i'm not trying to act dua or whatever. I didn't attitude Wanyu, or maybe i said something wrong offended her, then i'm sorry okay? It's just like, i trying to ask you to give in you know? I wanted us to give in together, i hope you're the one who gave in first.. I know that you did this for my own good, but doesnt mean he have a stead and i will give up you know? ): I want you all to give in but in the end i gave in.. Cause i really wanted to patch up with you all, i dont want to lose you all. To me, you all are still the best you know? Yes, i am seeking for mercy, i want you all to kelian me, i want you all to think that i'm very pitiful. I know you all hate me alot, if you want end friendship, just end it.. No use holding on to something isn't there. Maybe this is what you want. Forget it, although i can't bear to, but i know we can't be the best sisters like before already. We'll just be strangers from now one. If you want me to give up on him,congrats you succeed. Yes i have given up. Not totally but i know i can. Goodbye my friends. I wont forget those memories, maybe we're just not fated to be even friends.

If it’s not meant to be, then it won’t happen.

2010-03-21T22:13:00.004+08:00

Well, okay. It was MY fault can? MY fault for being stupid, to believe sucha GREAT JOKE. i know i am stupid i am dumb i am gullible i am stubbon. The problems lies on me, yeah. I bet you all are laughing very hard when you all knew that i had believe this bigbig joke. I know you all want me to give up, i know. But just, give me some time okay? I can promise to you i will try okay? I know when time passes, my love to him will sooner or later fade. Cause slowly i will accept the fact that we're impossible. I don't need you all to bluff me that he have a stead to make me give up. You should know, i won't. I know myself then anyone do.. When i know it's time to give up, i will. Just believe me, one day, i will give up. I dont know when this 'one day' will be, but it will happen. I know you all do these is for my own good, thanks. Just give me time. I believe i can. When I sleep in class, i am trying not to care. But it doesn't mean i dont listen to your advices. I just dont like the feeling of being lied you know? I don't wish to argue further. I'm very tired of these nonsense already.

Just because I’m quiet, doesn’t mean I don’t have a lot to say.
Just because I appear happy, doesn’t mean everything is okay.
Just because I forgive, doesn’t mean I forget.
Just because I don’t listen to your problems, doesn’t mean I don’t care.
Just because I’m gullible, doesn’t mean I can be cheated.
Just because I’m stubborn, doesn’t mean I’m not easy going.
Just because I don’t study, doesn’t mean I’m stupid.
Just because I don’t show my feelings, doesn’t mean I don’t have any.
Just because I’m honest, doesn’t mean I’m outspoken.
Just becuase I’m not like you, doesn’t mean I’m weird.
Just because I’m unsure, doesn’t mean I’m afraid.
Just because I don’t like you, doesn’t mean I don’t love you.

或许我不再出现爱才值得你怀念
huo xu wo bu zai chu xian ai cai zhi de ni huai nian
maybe I don´t show up again love will be worth you remember
你也不想见见了也不变
ni ye bu xiang jian jian le ye bu bian
you also don´t want to see seing also won´t change
你痛苦转身的局面
ni tong ku zhuan shen de ju mian
your hurtful face as you were turning

或许我放的坚决你才允许让回忆浮现
huo xu wo fang de jian jue ni cai cong xu rang hui yi fu xian
maybe if I let go firmly you´ll be able to let the memories emerge
是苦还是甜想起我的脸
shi ku hai shi tian xiang qi wo de lian
it´s bitter or it´s sweet when you remember my face
希望不是眼泪的咸
xi wang bu shi yan lei de xian
I hope it´s not the (taste of) salty tear

我只好离你远远却已伤害你偏偏
wo zhi hao li ni yuan yuan que yi shang hai ni pian pian
I only can leave you far away yet I still unluckily hurt you
我不配你的美竟把你爱得狼狈
wo bu pei ni de mei jing ba ni de lang bei
I don´t deserve your beauty ending let you love discomposured
可是我离你越远你越近靠在我眼前
ke shi wo li ni yue yuan ni yue jin kao zai wo yan qian
but I the farer I am from you the closer you´re in my eyes
已不见你幸福爱我的脸
yi bu jian ni xing fu ai wo de lian
I can´t see anymore your happy face that loved me

还欠你太多誓言我已没资格实践
hai qian ni tai duo shi yan wo yi mei zi ge shi jian
still owe you too many promises I don´t have that competence to carry them out
为我紧紧贴着你的从前
wei wo jin jin tie zhe ni de cong qian
for me you clinged closely (in) your past
而现在的我
er xian zai de wo
but the present me

我只好离你远远却已伤害你偏偏
wo zhi hao li ni yuan yuan que yi shang hai ni pian pian
I only can leave you far away yet I still unluckily hurt you
我不配你的美竟把你爱得狼狈
wo bu pei ni de mei jing ba ni de lang bei
I don´t deserve your beauty ending let you love discomposured
可是我离你越远你越近靠在我眼前
ke shi wo li ni yue yuan ni yue jin kao zai wo yan qian
but I the farer I am from you the closer you´re in my eyes
已不见你幸福爱我的脸
yi bu jian ni xing fu ai wo de lian
I can´t see anymore your happy face that loved me

在远远你幸福我会看见
zai yuan yuan ni xing fu wo hui kan jian
far away I´ll be watching your happiness

Life is so much easier when you just don’t give a fuck.

2010-03-21T16:47:00.001+08:00

It’s hard to judge people and know who’s who with that thin layer of masks on our faces. We all seem to know the people around us and seem to know what we should expect from each one of them: the liars, the funny ones, the bitches, the nerds, the happy ones, etc. We all think we know them until someone brings up an inside scoop - something that you’d never known would come from someone like that, but it did. And suddenly, you realize that maybe all your ‘people theories’ have been wrong all along, and that, maybe, just maybe, you have been lost in a pool of strangers the whole time.

I need a break from reality.

2010-03-18T13:44:00.003+08:00

Do you exprienced before the taste of being betrayed? Yes this is what the taste is, bitter. But a little sweet, cause you know, you will not believe this person anymore, you know that this person can't be trusted anymore, you know who is your real best friends, and who are the fake ones. I finally realised who should i believe now, yeah i know i'm gullible, so it's my fault for being gullible. My fault for treating you my best friends. My fault for beliving you lies just to make me. My fault for saying out my problems to you, to make you have chance to make me. My fault to keep letting you to hurt me and i'm still treating you as my bestest friend. I shouldn't believe people so easily now. Thanks that person for telling me this truth, to let me know who should i believe now. Yeah, i will stop being naive from now, i will grow up. Friends come and go. I won't believe anyone of you all anymore. In life, people will come and people go. But eventually you’ll learn that the people who stay are the ones who will always be there, through all the bullshit, drama, good or bad times. They will be beside you, and you’ll realize that those are the only people you truly need.

You can hate me. You can get everyone to turn against me. You can do your best to destroy me. You can break me. You can hurt me. But I promise you the only thing that will be given in return is karma. And it will hit you so hard that you will suffer ten times worse than I did.

And this is what i am fucking thinking right now. I know karma will hit on you. It may not hit on you today, tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow. But i know karma will hit you one day. Ten times worse then i suffered. Watch out.

What is love to you?

2010-03-17T22:56:00.000+08:00

I keep wondering where did I go wrong. Maybe I didn’t go wrong at all. Maybe things are going to turn out the way they’re meant to and nothing’s going to stop them. Some things are easy to control and work out. But some things you just have to let go. So instead of asking why it turned out like this, I should just accept that this is how it is. There is no way to change it, but I can love it. I want to love it.

The prettiest dresses are worn to be taken off

2010-03-16T01:45:00.003+08:00

Hai! Watch being human again with Qinyu and Cindy. (: Didn't go to east coast park, as my mother don't allow.. Sorry for that. :( And yeah, it's the second time i watched the movie, but it was still funny as ever. (: Homed at around 7pm plus.
I am lazy to post, hahahahahaha bye.

Sometimes i just act like i don't care.

2010-03-14T13:37:00.005+08:00

Well, i had not posted a proper post these few days. The posts are either videos or pictures. Sorry for that, hahaha. I'm just too lazy to post one proper post. Maybe one day i will post one proper post alright! ;) Anyway, i'm going to east coast park with Cindy and Qinyu. Quite excited! And we'll be having our dinner at mac, fats! I think my mother will only give me 5 bucks for dinner. Oh fuck, so maybe i can only afford mac, or maybe hawker center food. Qinyu say she'll spon me some money for mac. Ohyeah! So dinner won't be a big problem. :) And yeah, the march holidays are here, like finally! I have one week of holidays, but also one week of homework. Arghz. But i only brought my geography workbook back home. Others are at school! So maybe i'll be only doing geography homework. I suddenly miss school. I need holidays when i'm in school, but when holidays came, i feel like going back. Strange isn't it? Cause i was really bored like shit at home. What can i do is only using computer to kill time. And i don't feel like doing homework too. :/ I hope tomorrow will be fun! And hope it won't rain and won't be too hot!

only a matter of time,

2010-03-13T13:43:00.003+08:00

sixtyfivehearts:

before hope closes in on you
i sleep intermittently, for hours on end and some days hardly at all. i watch movies and listen to songs that break my heart. it doesn’t really matter because i’ve gotten better at hiding, but some days not so well. people get tired. yet in reality i think no one really cares to hear anything less than “i am fine”. someday (perhaps in a good way) i might even forget how to feel.

^_^

2010-03-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

I really enjoy spending time with you, even if we’re just going to be sitting around and talking about nothing. There are a million things I love about you, like your nose or the way you smile, the way you look me in the eye, too. And I just get the greatest feeling when I make you laugh. I feel as if my company makes you happy, and that’s what I wish for you. For you to be happy. And when I see you laugh at my clumsy ways, it just makes me want to spend the rest of my life with you so I can see a smile on your face.

Awww so true. (:
Happy holidays. I'm not happy.

I call it love.

2010-03-11T22:34:00.004+08:00

Class tee is out alrd. Design was better then i thought.
School was okay like usual. Homed at seven.
X-country tomorrow. Not gna sleep tonight. Meeting liangli @ six tomorrow.
Bringing Malini to harbour front to take her bus to KL, takecare darlin!
I hope tomorrow will be a good day. Nights.
30th.

Kipnapped!

2010-03-10T19:45:00.001+08:00

Ohmygoddd i can't wait for this show! 18 march. :D

Smiles…

2010-03-07T21:39:00.001+08:00

It doesn’t take alot to smile, but sometimes in life, things happen and our smiles get stolen from us.
We frown, we tear, even weep… but just find it hard to smile again.

Nothing is worth having so much as something unattainable.

2010-03-07T14:06:00.000+08:00

Oh hello~ I'm bored right nownownow~ Downloading audition cause there's alot of songs dont have. Make me keep dc. :@ Redownloading. I hope it helps. The fucking abm sucks, not all songs are inside. My sister only downloaded the full version and all songs are inside. Fml.

Went science center yesterday. Together with Geokqin they all. Jingxuan and Liangli when to IMM first. Jingxuan wanted to buy a bag. Then bused to westmall, waited for them to come westmall then watched movie.

The movie called Happy Go Lucky i think. Quite boring flim. Only about gambling then lost all money then the daughter try to win back the money then end~ Quite sucky. Wasted 10 dollars for that. Argh.

Then went to Jingxuan cousin house to take psp. At kranji. Quite far. When we were take the train, the stop before yew tee. The train can't move. But in the end it successfully moved to yewtee but everyone must go out of the train~ Woah then got alot of people lor!

Next train came. Wanted to get it but inside was alotalot of people. Plus those just came out from the spoilt train. Very squeezey so decided to wait for the next one. Reached kranji, then went to Jingxuan cousin house. Woah condo! The condo looks quite old. Cause no paint ma~ :P

After that then went to Liangli cousin house cause quite near. She ate at there. After that train back to bukitbatok. Then Jingxuan and Liangli train back to jurong. Hehee quite a long day but overall was okay. :)

Today is sunday~ Not going outtt~ But very bored at home. Hais. Tomorrow there's school! Need to wake up early for 5 days again. BUT the holidays are coming!!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT FOR ITTTT. Maybe later i'll call Liangli and Jingxuan come my house. Maybe. ^^

Okayokay quite crappy post for today. :P Byebyeee!

The only moment we were alone

2010-03-05T23:32:00.002+08:00

Done posting pictures. Nights

The key to life is happiness

2010-03-04T21:13:00.002+08:00

H E L L O !! School was quite okay these few days. Literature yesterday was fun. I swear damn fun. I keep read wrong words, and got laughed! And the class was noisy because me haha! Oh-god-no, oh-my-god. Hahaha! This was damn funny, i read it as a robot tone!! And i love seeing people laugh, makes me laugh and feel happy too. :)

Jingxuan, Liangli and Shirley came my house yesterday! Watched hei tang ma qi duo. Jingxuan say my bed very comfortable hehehee! Shirley and liangli used computer. :) Liangli and Jingxuan left at 6pm. Shirley stayed. She watched me play audition haha. She laughed at same dance moves. LOL. She went home at 7pm. ^^

Today had.. Chinese oral. Hmm, i saw i got 17 for the first section. Idk total how much ah. But i hope chinese oral i'll pass. Cause there's only a passage to read. The teacher even asked me about my family haha. Royce was damn funny while we're waiting for our turn. Cause the teacher's tone is in china oneee. Then royce followed the china tone. Was damn funny can! Haaha! I laughed really like crazyz. Then played truth or truth. Benjamin tio alot of times haha!

Then went to Westmall to watch movie. Watched Being Human (做人). Was damn funny lor! I laughed alot of times. We missed 5min of the show cause we late go in. :( But i laughed damn hard was when they danced sorry sorry! HAHAHA. Laughed like hell can?!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lCYLuOaaVW0 This is the film trailer!!

I am busy these days ahhh. Tomorrow going to IMM. Then saturday going to Body worlds at science center!! Had to prepare 10 dollars for admission. Ahh! And tomorrow giving class tee money, x-country food money! Need to take alot of money from my mother le! But class tee i'll pay myself. ^^ Then next thursday planning to watch Kidnapped. Haha, another jack neo show.

Okay can i say this is a long post finally?!
B Y E !

Shut the Fuck up.

2010-03-03T22:20:00.002+08:00

We talk shit even though we don't like people shit-talking us. We laugh at people but get mad when they laugh at us. We complain even though we're complaining about how people always complain. We say we'll never do this and that but end up doing it. We say we hate haters when we're the ones hating our haters. We're hypocrites and you know it. I’m a bitch because i don’t let you push me around. I’m a liar because i won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes i’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a whore because i like boys. I’m a loser because i’m not friends with your group. I’m fake because most of the time i’m happy. I’m weird because i’m not like you. Don’t tell me who i am because i already know.

You can hate me. You can get everyone to turn against me. You can do your best to destroy me. You can break me. You can hurt me. But I promise you the only thing that will be given in return is karma. And it will hit you so hard that you will suffer ten times worse than I did.

Coooool! :> From celeste blog. :D

Jealousy sucks. :(
Hope you hand is alright.

2010-03-01T23:47:00.003+08:00

We are all placed on earth to leave imprints on each others' lives.
Life is about creating something out of nothing, stick to it and keep working on it.
No one can stop you unless you stop yourself, No one will push you unless you push yourself. The choice is yours.

-http://www.jj-lin.com/

I can't imagine feeling about anyone else the way I feel about you.

2010-02-28T23:51:00.002+08:00

Hello earthlings! Short post here right nownownow. (: Hmmm today is a typical sunday for me. :( Very really bored to the shit that i used the computer almost the whole day. Going offline soon, my eyes are closingggg. There's school tomorrow. Fml. And there's hair and attire check. DOUBLE FML. I cut my nails already! :) Was really bored to the very extend. Now playing a new game called Ponzi i guess. This game! And yeah the game was not bad! You can try it. :) And yeah, i changed a blogskin again! Quite satisfied with it. ;] Alright, ending here now. Offline soon. Nights! :D

Putting a fake smile when inside it's bleeding.

I don't care anymore. Hell yeah.

I just don't undestand.

2010-02-28T00:02:00.003+08:00

Fuck-ed up life. Everything just went wrong, fucking wrong. You call me to give up, you call me to let go, you call me to forget. You said its a deal, if anyone fails to do it must pay 10 dollars. Two days before you told me this. But yesterday you stead with him. Yeah and i wanted the 10 dollars, you dont want to give. And end up arguing with me. Idk why. Idk where am i in the wrong you know? Can anyone tell me? Where am i wrong? Please.. You picked up a fight with me and now you/re saying like as if i'm in the fault, idw to listen?..What the fuck is this. You can stead with him and i cannot like him. I really think that this world is very unfair. I just don't understand why everything is unfair for me. But nevermind. If you think it's my fault to be stubbon, my fault to not listen to you all. Everything was my fault. I caused all these to happen. So be it. Idc already. Seriously.

And so I've been wondering; who's your heart beating for?

2010-02-26T14:46:00.002+08:00

Life had been miserable for me. Not really but i just hate life. We're classmates, yet we have to act like we're strangers. Why? I am scary. Ya so this is your reason? Don't you think it's lame?.. Lol.. >< Thanks leonard, for telling me. Thanks and sorry to sisters. Giving me advice encouraging me to give up but i just simply can't. I need time, but i don't want. Why? Idk too.. Maybe i can't bear to. Thanks qinyu too. I shall end here now. Or later i'll be continue posting secrets. Bye.. Sisters, i'll be fine don't worry.. :) But the old racheltanjiaxuan is dead. It can't be alive again. Maybe one day it can. I guess.

2010-02-25T18:18:00.001+08:00

春天慢慢一点点发芽　快乐开始都有了想像
城市光合作用的模样　幸福开始组装

＊夜里满园的茉莉花香　月光洒落看不见忧伤
　旋转木马前那个广场　爱情开始滋长

※想你有时会缺氧　嘴角不自觉上扬
　这是不是幸福的现象　胸口微微的发烫

＃想你有时会缺氧　脸红呼吸不正常
　这是不是幸福的症状　不知不觉又缺氧
转载来自 ※Mojim.com　魔镜歌词网

Repeat ＊,＃

无法移动的梦想　就算没有人鼓掌　我也不会受伤
不会稀释的信仰　心穿越砖墙　在你的身旁

Repeat ※

想你有时会缺氧　脸红呼吸不正常
这是不是幸福的症状　胸口微微的发烫　不知不觉又缺氧

想你有时会缺氧.. And yeah it's true.

我很想他

2010-02-24T20:54:00.003+08:00

我知道你还是爱着我虽然
分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过所以
即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我才会
在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中其实
这份爱没停过

Suddenly.. I'm in love in this song, again. Especially the lyrics.

School was okay. But life just fuckingly sucks. Can anyone help? Imissyou.

答應你我會好好過不讓這些眼淚白流

2010-02-24T11:16:00.001+08:00

:( ........

I've come to realise, its the What If's that hurt the most.

2010-02-23T21:33:00.001+08:00

HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry for not posting anything proper. Common tests are at these days! Tmr will have the LAST TEST! Geo! :D FINALLY HOR. One day 2 test, omg! Today had D&T test! Science and chineseee. 3 test in a day!!!!!!!! Science is quite easy, but i think cmi la! Cause i suck in science! D&T IS DAMN DIFFICULT I TELL YOU. HAHA. Chinese MORE cmi. SO DIFFICULT LA. Tmr geo. CMI TOO OMG. i hate geo. JIAYOU TO PEOPLE HAVING GEO INCLUDING ME!

AND TAG MORE LEHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-21T20:11:00.001+08:00

I FOUND THE ACTUAL SONG I WAS LISTENING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's was the same song, well no wonder i heard that song before.

Over sensitivity

2010-02-21T16:41:00.002+08:00

Another great song.. :) Love it veryvery much! This gonna be one of my fav song. Bring back some memories. I think i heard this music before. Can't remember it. But really like it. Listen it! You won't regret! Althought it's on cantonese, but just listen to the music, wonderful. (:

Edited some parts of my blog. Changed mixpod to singingbox. Can't play youtube songs. Sad die. Thanks wanyu for teaching me how to add songs aye. Need search one. xD Well quite a crappy post ya.

School and common test tomorrow. Jiayou bbss-ians! And 2N1-ians, brothers and sisters! Hope this common test will be a good one. With everyone passing. (: And yeah, i hope all brothers and sisters could promote together to 3N1. (:

Yay, i posted a proper post i guess? :) I hope i could forget you, believe me i could, maybe. And i created a private blog. (Y) All my feelings will be posted inside. Alright, end here noww. Byebye.

It's not easy as you think.

2010-02-21T14:25:00.001+08:00

I tried to move on. I really did. I tried to tell myself that you don’t want me and I can’t have you anymore. I tried so hard, but how can you let go of the only person who makes you happy? The only person who makes you feel alive? The only reason you’re still here? You just can’t let go of someone like that.

2010-02-20T22:08:00.003+08:00

"What is trust to you?"

and to me, it's just something easy to lose in somebody and hard to build.

Keep going right back to the one thing that I need to walk away from.

2010-02-20T00:03:00.000+08:00

FUNNY VIDEO!!! Recommended by Amelia. DAMN DAMN FUNNY I SWEAR. HAHAHHA. MADE ME AND MY SISTER LAUGHED LIKE MAD! :D

Finally today is friday, will be having common test at monday. Jiayou bbss-ians! And jiayou to me too! Ganbattle! :D Amelia teached me this word, haha! It's means jiayou! Tomorrow going to mac to revise work, and do science project right after tuition. Arghhh i'm still abit scared of common test idk why. Hahaha. Okay ending my post here now. (: Nights.

You are the definition of love.

2010-02-18T21:33:00.005+08:00

HELLO! Sorry for not posting for DAYS as i am lazy to. lol. Eh how was the cny holidays ah? I enjoyed it but my total hongbao money was only $170.. =( Pathetic enough. haha. Okay then day2 was alright, alot people came my house. Hahaha quite noisy. I'm in my own room. When i go out the whole living room is smoking smell-.- fucking smelly can. Arghhhh.

Day3 was fun. Went out with Amelia, Jieyu, Tingwei, Alex chen, Yaqi, Benjamin and Wanyu. Hahahaaa. went to jurong safra for kbox. Sang for a total of... 2hr plus ah. Got photos to upload. I dont have alot, some of them from jieyu there. Maybe i'll edit this post and add the photos.

Yeah, finish posting the pictures. (: Had much much fun @ kbox. But end up the bill is $27.70 per person. Didn't bring enough money! Only brought 20 dollars. D: Amelia help me pay first! Thanks! :D Then walked to bangala park. It's jurong central park but cause but they called it bangala park! Haha! :D Play and chatted awhile. The boys playing sanddd. Hahas.
After that on the way walking back to jurong point yaqi asked me the date. I say it's 17 jan. Malini bday! She's like shcocked cause she dontknow, LOL. Then called Malini and sang HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =D Yeah called the boys sing with us too. xD Malini damn shocked!!!

Went jurong point, then went to interchange with amelia. Seperate ways to take bus. (: Reached home, day3. Yeah enjoyed.
Day4. School, sianzxccccccccccxczzzz. And today is day5. Ha, chinese new year gone so fast.

I'm afraid that I'm not good enough for you, and I never will be.

Happy cny!

2010-02-15T14:49:00.001+08:00

Ohyeah! Hello hello! Happy chinese new year and valentines day people! :D This cny was still okay, quite boring yah. ._. Many people rotting at home. Same here! But yesterday i went to my wai po's house (mother side) to bai nian! My another grandmother (father side) too! Cause her house is just beside my house, LOL. But my wai po house is at jurong point there. D:

Then in the morning around 10am plus, prepared things and got a hongbao from my mother. $10, pathetic enough LOL. Okay then bused to jurong point. Took bus to wai po house. Only 2 stops, ahaha. Reached there say GONG XI FA CAI then got hongbaos! :D :D :D They watched movie, laughing all the way. But i am using computer. (: Cause very bored. The movie like damn funny like that, everyone laughing. LOL!

Okay then at around 3pm plus. Said byebye to wai po then bused back home. Played computer, then heard lion dance sound. Dongdongqiang! Hahaha! Okay then outside is damn noisy. x.x Got some lion dance pics from my mother, gna post it up now. It's damn cute. :D

Isn't it cute. HAHAAH. :D The first pic is my father friends. ^^ Last pic is the lion make one. :D And i also have a video of the lion dance. But my mother's phone is iPhone so she cannot send to my phone. :( :( But she posted it on Facebook. :D The lion dance pics are also taken from facebook one. :D
Click here to view the video. :D

Okay then at night 8pm plus, prepared and my father went to jurong east to take his friends and we to he pan. :D Reached he pan, the games are damn scary can?! One of them is like pirate ship, at first i thought the game is pirate ship. But it isn't! The thing will spin 360 DEGREES HIGH UP UP UP. WTF, EVEN I AM WATCHING THEM PLAYING I ALSO SCARED CAN. And also have another game, you stand inside the circle then the thing will SPIN SPIN SPIN. WTF, DAMN FAST.

I saw bumper cars, i want play but my mother don't allow. :( :( Sad-ed. She say what here pay very expensive one. Tsk, nevermind. Then walkwalk. Brought a tiger, ^^ Damn cute, i hang it with my phone. My sister take pink one. I take yellow one. I think yellow one is cuter, and it's the last one already HAHAHA.

Walked finish then my father bring his friends back to jurong east then home sweet home! Hehehe this is my DAY1 of cny! I think i will post DAY2 tmr. And today is day2 la. LOLOL. Today night many people coming my house. Omgay hongbaos again! :D :D :D But i guess it won't be alot. ._. Cause coming de people is my father's friend.

Last year i even got some hongbaos $2 ones. but got 1 or 2 $10 ones nia. Aaaaaa. I think this year total up hongbao money will be only $200. :( Okay byebye. I want go audi liao hahaahah.